When the press got hold of the story they seemed to misinterpret what was going on

When the press got hold of the story, they seemed to misinterpret what was going on. They thought John-Paul was suing me directly.I’m not sure how much money we will get. His injuries meant that he couldn’t play games with other children and lost a lot of his childhood. I’d watch him walking down the street limping, and think: that’s down to me. If he got really down, I’d say “just think yourself lucky, you’re alive”.

Recently, we were told John- Paul might have to get his foot amputated I really wanted to do something to make it up to him. I think even if he did blame me, he wouldn’t let on: he hates to see me upset.John-Paul has suffered so much pain and frustration, it’s hard watching it. The only time John-Paul ever showed any anger towards me was in the hospital. He’d get frustrated and talk to me in a different tone to his dad I thought it was because he was blaming me for his pain I’d question him, but he always denied it.

When I stopped, all I could do was think about the accident and that would start me off again.I felt really guilty about the situation, but there was no hostility towards me If people did think it was my fault, they never showed it. In a mad panic, I crashed into a signpost and was knocked out for a few seconds. I came to and thought: “What have I done?” The impact was on John-Paul’s side of the car, and he was bent like a banana. My daughter Gemma had been flipped into the boot and her twin Steven was trapped behind John-Paul. At first I thought John-Paul was dead, I kept crying and saying “I’m sorry, I’m sorry”. When I heard him scream, I was relieved, but still felt awful, he was in great pain because of me.
I broke my pelvis and had to stay in hospital for three days All I did was cry. Sue

As I started to lose control of the car, I was thinking “Oh my God”.